Strong surges of electricity passing through the body – the metaphysical event is so mysterious, however often this miracle is perceived, no logic or intuition satisfies the how, why or what.
What is the energy that courses from head to toe, especially building up in the chest and the abdomen, which can often be so powerful, to the point of overwhelming a participant into intermittent stages of paralysis, loss of speech and memory, decline of eyesight and hearing, and often antedates a profound transformation that is about to take (or is already taking) place?
Here are historical correlations between the innerdance and the strong seizures that happen in people’s bodies, using the radical metaphor of epilepsy to trace what electricity surges happening throughout the body mean for evolving concepts of spiritual intelligence within the innerdance experience.
One of the first persons I was given an opportunity to practice “healing” upon was a young epileptic boy of about 12 or 13 years of age. I remember being called to a simple fisherman’s hut during one of his seizures. As he gripped my arm with his long-nailed muscular hands (he was extraordinarily large for his age), I had to wait for the electrical surges to flow through my own body as my slender arm held his chest and his wrists for a long time.
As he drew small amounts of blood from my arm, I saw in my mind, colors and various energy sensations filling my brain. I was being given a glimpse into the mindbody of the epileptic. It wasn’t a difficult correlation. By this time, my own body was used to epilepsy-type seizures. In later years, as I read the literatures on Kundalini, I nodded at how epilepsy is deemed vastly misunderstood by medicine; in the understandings of progressive energy science, epilepsy is the strong spiritual pulsation of uninhibited electricity throughout the whole body, which if harnessed properly, brings its initiates into the many stages of the long process of growth and evolution. If epileptics have received the support they needed, we would perceive them not as victims of a broken brain, but as wise beings with messages to contribute.
As so many in the stages of transformation witness the same, epileptics are extremely sensitive to the moon cycle, to foods that alter one’s moods, to music, to particular words, to touch. Even mild sensory inputs might trigger the body systems of epileptics into phases much familiar to innerdances where contractions of magnetism and electricity passing through the body renders a person a conduit for an engulfing amount of life force energy.
Epilepsy has much to reveal in the future, even as it has already done so over the last century. It was because of epilepsy that we eventually found the basic physical mapping that situates our mentality’s basic dualisms. In the early 1960’s, psychobiologist Roger Sperry with his colleagues conducted split-brain experiments on an epileptic patient who needed to have his corpus callosum severed, a practice performed for complex epilepsy sufferers to decrease or entirely discontinue extreme “interhemispheric electrical storms” that could lead to injury or death.
Located in between, the corpus callosum is the “bridge” between the left and right hemispheres of the brain, consisting of about 200 to 250 million axons that connect both sides.
In the innerdances, streams of electricity flow freely through both brains while participants become willing epileptics, blissing out in a momentary loss of identity and speech, particularly achievable by right-brained dominant minds whose only assurance is that they have such a brain is their depression-laden history.
Jenny from New York writes: “my body is still shaking, trembling, seeking for another earthquake. And my eyes have been welling up in appropriate and inappropriate times and places. There will be more cathartic moments, I know. There are still so much to be danced out. But I am willing. I surrender everything to a whole new becoming.”
According to a study conducted by the University of Wisconsin, it is demonstrated that people with very dominant right brains generally exhibit depressive, anxious, pessimistic tendencies and feel worse about themselves. On the other hand, left-brain dominants tend to be optimistic, confident, happy and enthused with life. The right side has been proposed by some neuroscientists to manage negative feelings, while the left side handles positive ones.
In one particular training in Chiang Rai in Thailand in 2014, a Chinese woman who had suffered from a very long bout of depression experienced short-term Broca’s Aphasia after a particularly intense morning. Over a long lunch break, I had repeatedly asked her to say her name. To her horror and hilarity, she could not utter it, despite her name only has two letters. In the next hours, other word and phrase constructions were just as near impossible.
Throughout the 19th century, “epilepsy” was still freely-interpreted (and misinterpreted) as a neurological, psychiatric, or psychosomatic disorder of an unknown pathology. By the first half of the 20th century, racial anthropologists and eugenicists lumped epilepsy as one of key features of “feeble-mindedness” and “decreased intelligence” suffered collectively by the insane, the criminal, the racially disadvantaged, the alcoholics, the dependents, etc.
Especially in America, epileptics were largely forcibly targeted for wide-spread sterilization. In what is thought by some as the worst medical malpractice in US history, epileptics and other mentally-degenerate people were appropriated in places such as the Virginia State Colony for Epileptics and Feeble-Minded. In such sites, over 60,000 people in America were forcibly sterilized from ever having children again, in order to cleanse the race of undesirable bad genetics as part of the global eugenics movement.
Before our eyes, we are witnessing a post-modern re-conceptualization of epilepsy, even as we imagine a new understanding of intelligence. Going further, we behold how the Split-Brain Theory reflexes in its own splitting, succumbing to a primal yet future unified consciousness, abetted by a re-thickening of the corpus callosum that heals broken connections that once separated the left and the right.
It may be too soon to say, innerdance is an “epileptic induction technique.” Prior to this, it may be better to ask, “what is epilepsy” to the wide-eyed spiritual pilgrims whom like Maui, are often at an aphasic loss for words, but are also somehow, able to wisely comprehend what inhabits the wordless.
Aristotle since antiquity is known as the first thinker to connect epilepsy to genius. He himself experienced seizures, as did his predecessors, Pythagoras and Socrates. Just a few other names who are known to have suffered similar epileptic states are not exactly what one might call feeble-minded or decreased in intelligence: Julius Ceasar, Alexander the Great, Albert Einstein, Hannibal, Napoleon, Leonardo Da Vinci, Vincent Van Gogh, Michelangelo, Beethoven, Nobel, Issac Newton, Thomas Edison, Luther, Saint Paul, Joan of Arc, Edgar Allan Poe and Lewis Carroll.
As Maui and many others slowly take their long time to find the appropriate ways to express the inexpressible, a flowing power flickers patiently for however long it takes to enflame a long-forgotten infinite wisdom, embodied and waiting for its fuller expressions in us and many others.